I CAN’T DO THIS! I screamed.
I had googled, researched and thesaurus-ed my way to complete defeat. No matter how hard I tried, I could not think of an amazing title for my blog post.
I can’t do this. Why do I even try? Who am I kidding? I should be able to do this but I can’t. I can’t write a blog post title. I can’t write anything. I can’t do the things God asks me to do. I can’t do anything worth while at all.
Down, down, down the spiral I went.
I would like to tell you that blog writing is the only area of my life where “I Can’t” thoughts dominate, but I can’t. (Ok that was a very sad joke.) My husband can testify how often I have gone sliding down this spiral of defeat.
But then God…
(Don’t you love those words?)
God showed me something amazing. Who knew getting caught up with a case of the “I Can’t”s would turn into a great opportunity for God to speak into my life? But it certainly did.
I have read and relied upon the truth that He revealed so often since then, that I simply have to share it with you!
How to Conquer “I Can’t”
When God asked Moses to speak to Pharaoh, Moses came down with a case of the “I Can’t”s. He felt his stuttering disqualified him from the task for which God had already chosen him. God responded by saying, “Who gave man his mouth?…Is it not I, the Lord? Now go, I will help you speak.”(Ex. 4) In other words, if God needed him to be eloquent in speech, He would make him eloquent in speech. Moses’ stuttering was not a barricade that Moses needed to surmount before walking in obedience.
To my knowledge, there is no indication whether Moses supernaturally stopped stuttering before Pharaoh or not. Regardless of whether Moses overcame his slow speech instantaneously, over time or never at all, the point is God’s message was heard through Moses.
God doesn’t always turn our weaknesses into our strengths per se (although He can), but instead asks us to see our capabilities for what they are: irrelevant…for He is the Lord who gave man his capabilities.
I often feel my writing has to be perfect or at the very least really good in order for God’s message to be heard. An “I can’t do this” attitude sets in when I can’t live up to my own standards, and I struggle to get out of it. I, like Moses, let my own ideals disqualify me from the task for which God has already chosen me.
I need to step out in obedience, rather than demanding that He perfect my abilities first. I cannot allow perfectionism to continually shut me down and hold me back. If I can’t write an amazing blog post title for example, then perhaps I should write the best title I can, even if its mediocre. After all, my prayer is that God’s message is heard, not that my amazing blog titles are admired. I want to be like Paul, whose message was not with “persuasive words but with a demonstration of the Spirit’s power so that your faith might not rest on men’s wisdom, but on God’s power.” (I Cor 2:4-5)
Toss the perfectionism rather than throwing out the task that God has given you. When God chooses not to give you supernatural eloquent speech, may I suggest that eloquent speech isn’t required in order for Him to accomplish His will?
Oh, that I may learn to rely completely on my amazing God, even in the face of my biggest “I Can’t”s!