When will this ever be over God? What is going on? Why are you keeping us in the dark?
I went to sleep feeling optimistic and awoke the next morning depressed. Somehow, as I slept, any hope I held in my heart vanished. My prayers reflected my depression. God, when will my husband find a job? Will we ever get out of this season? Did You forget about us? Have you left us in the dark forever? Uncertainty is difficult. Not knowing when the uncertainty will end is even worse.
A friend sympathized, ‘I know what it feels like to be in a darkroom where you can’t see your hand in front of your face.’
Darkroom. The word seemed to stand out from all the rest. A darkroom is the perfect way to describe this season. No light–I cannot see His hand at work. No open doors–I cannot see a future.
Yet as I ponder this word further, a darkroom is also where photographs are processed.The door is tightly shut; the room’s conditions are carefully monitored. Each photograph must endure the proper process. The room must remain dark for the negatives to develop into the image already impressed upon them. If someone opens the door before the proper time, the photographs would be ruined.
Darkroom. Ironically, the word now seems to shine a small ray of hope into my gloomy soul.
We are in a darkroom for a purpose. God is developing something inside of us. We are being transformed into His image (2 Cor. 3:18). He will only open the door when the time is right. Otherwise, that which He is developing will be ruined. God has not forgotten us. He has not abandoned us. He is carefully overseeing this process. When the appointed time comes, the door will open and “many will see and fear and put their trust in our Lord.” Psalm 40:3
I wrote this as a journal entry over a year ago, but I share this now for your encouragement. Are you in a season of ‘darkness’–not darkness as sinfulness, rather as wilderness or the unknown? Are you discouraged because you cannot see what God is doing? Have you lost hope because you cannot see a future? All of your suffering is for a great purpose. He is developing His image in you. He is doing His mighty work!
For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. 2 Corinthians 4:17-18
I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. Romans 8:18