Some days I am drowning in emotion and can’t seem to swim to safety. I want to feel differently, but cannot. I want to be different, but am not. I hear people around me say, “swim to the left, swim to the right”, but I cannot swim at all. I am falling apart. Do they not understand this?
Making things even more difficult is the fact that I hate, and I mean HATE, when I fall apart emotionally. I can’t stand me. I can see the destruction that I am causing both to myself and to those around me, but I still can’t help but freak out. I don’t want to be around me, and yet I can’t get away from myself. Alas! “What a wretched [woman] I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ!” Romans 7:24-25
Today God has shown me three truths to hold onto when I am emotionally falling apart. I pray you will find healing in them as much as I do.
Three Truths For When You Are Falling Apart
1. God’s Love Never Changes. Ever.
“His love endures forever.” Psalm 136:1
The fall (Adam and Eve’s sin) changed many things, but God’s love wasn’t one of them. Before all of creation, He loved you. When He left heaven to be born in a trough, He loved you. When He died on the cross so that you might live, He loved you. Before you knew Him at all, He loved you. When you came to know Him, He loved you. When you doubted Him, He loved you. His love for you has never changed. When your emotions are flying out all over the place, He loves you. When you are unsure of your feelings towards Him, you can be sure of this: He loves you just as much as He did when He gave up His life for you. Just. As. Much.
2. God’s Love Will Quiet You.
“The Lord your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you with his love; he will exult over you with loud singing.” Zephaniah 3:17
My youngest son was bawling his eyes out one day and when I asked him what was wrong, he managed to spout out three words in between sobs, ”I…don’t….know.” My heart softened as I got down on my knees beside him. I knew what that felt like. I wrapped my arms around him and loved him. His tears slowed, and my love quieted him. How much more will the love of Christ quiet us for “we do not have a high priest [Jesus] that cannot be touched with the feelings of our weaknesses.” Hebrews 4:15 You don’t have to figure everything out. You don’t have to find a way to self soothe. Christ is in your midst. He will quiet you with His love. (For more, about this verse, click here.)
3. God’s Love Is More Powerful Than Emotion.
“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:38-39
In times of distress, the full force of our emotions can be frightening. What if our emotions are too much for Christ to handle? What if I get so angry that I negate His love for me?
Despite all that you may feel, nothing has the power to change the character of God. You cannot make God stop loving you. You can reject his love, refuse His love, ignore His love, disbelieve His love,… but you cannot stop His love. Your emotions, no matter how strong or uncontrolled, cannot change who God is. Please let me paraphrase the above verse as it might apply to our states of emotional distress: For I am convinced that …nothing, NOT ANYTHING IN ALL CREATION….no emotion, no matter its intensity… can separate us from the love of God that is found in Jesus.